My god, it's already a month since I last posted here. And my last posting was not much about words.
On thursday 22nd I celebrated my 25th birthday. Yeah, I think it's offical. I'm grown up.
I accept it now. It's nothing that scares me anymore. Let's see what I'll write when I'm getting 30.... but I think they were all right. All the people that are older than me.
I remember someone saying (maybe it was a celebrity or maybe I read it in a book, I don't know anymore): "It was when I was in my 30s that I finally got to know myself."
I think I now know what this person was talking about. I thought I know myself when I got 18, then when I got 21.
I was wrong.
I don't want to say, I know myself that good now, it's just that I feel that I got closer to the person I am. I can tell now what is me, where my borders are and were other people beginn.
If you're not getting what I'm writing about... you're probably too young.
No, just kidding ;-)
Now that I'm working as a pro photographer for this little team, I finally have the time to spend my freetime on doing something else. How can I say... now that I know that I'll be spending my time on photographing/editing 30-40 hours a week, I feel reliefed.
I feel kinda free.
Back in my old life, where I had to spend 8 hours at a work I hated, I always thought "I could use this time for photography". So this pressure is now gone.
So, now I can look for other things that I like too. And I already discovered I like writing.
I used to write a lot when I was in my teenage years. I wrote kinda poems. I am not sure because I had not in my mind "now I'm writing a poem". The words just came out.
It was a month ago that I had this vision. Normally these visions are about a picture, but this time I knew photography would be the wrong media to let this feelings out. So when I got home, I sat down and wrote. I wrote and wrote. I wrote almost everyday.
Until now I wrote about 80 pages.
So, this time I'm not posting a picture. All you see is
Words.
