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Oct 26, 2009

Things are changing

My god, it's already a month since I last posted here. And my last posting was not much about words.

On thursday 22nd I celebrated my 25th birthday. Yeah, I think it's offical. I'm grown up.
I accept it now. It's nothing that scares me anymore. Let's see what I'll write when I'm getting 30.... but I think they were all right. All the people that are older than me.
I remember someone saying (maybe it was a celebrity or maybe I read it in a book, I don't know anymore): "It was when I was in my 30s that I finally got to know myself."
I think I now know what this person was talking about. I thought I know myself when I got 18, then when I got 21.
I was wrong.
I don't want to say, I know myself that good now, it's just that I feel that I got closer to the person I am. I can tell now what is me, where my borders are and were other people beginn.
If you're not getting what I'm writing about... you're probably too young.
No, just kidding ;-)

Now that I'm working as a pro photographer for this little team, I finally have the time to spend my freetime on doing something else. How can I say... now that I know that I'll be spending my time on photographing/editing 30-40 hours a week, I feel reliefed.
I feel kinda free.
Back in my old life, where I had to spend 8 hours at a work I hated, I always thought "I could use this time for photography". So this pressure is now gone.
So, now I can look for other things that I like too. And I already discovered I like writing.
I used to write a lot when I was in my teenage years. I wrote kinda poems. I am not sure because I had not in my mind "now I'm writing a poem". The words just came out.

It was a month ago that I had this vision. Normally these visions are about a picture, but this time I knew photography would be the wrong media to let this feelings out. So when I got home, I sat down and wrote. I wrote and wrote. I wrote almost everyday.
Until now I wrote about 80 pages.

So, this time I'm not posting a picture. All you see is
Words.

1 comment:

Lisa Petrarca said...

Happy belated birthday! It's true you know...when you get older you no longer care what people think and if you fit in. You start focusing on finding out what you enjoy doing.

I'm with you...I sit at work (like a caged animal) wishing I was out taking pictures and writing. Maybe I will take that photography class one day!

Congrats on getting to do what you love!