Merry rockin' X-mas

(C) www.brigittecorn.at
Brigitte, Sarah, me, Walter - the phototeam.

Can't believe it... it's X-mas tomorrow.... OMG! I'm working as a photographer since summer and the x-mas time was really busy for our team. But we did a great job, most of all because we had each other and we had wonderful clients. It was really great and I'm excited about the new year and all the weddings that are comming up.

I'm wishing you all a blessed christmas and happy new year!

Love,
Melanie

PS: my website has a new layout! checkt it out now!

Things are changing

My god, it's already a month since I last posted here. And my last posting was not much about words.

On thursday 22nd I celebrated my 25th birthday. Yeah, I think it's offical. I'm grown up.
I accept it now. It's nothing that scares me anymore. Let's see what I'll write when I'm getting 30.... but I think they were all right. All the people that are older than me.
I remember someone saying (maybe it was a celebrity or maybe I read it in a book, I don't know anymore): "It was when I was in my 30s that I finally got to know myself."
I think I now know what this person was talking about. I thought I know myself when I got 18, then when I got 21.
I was wrong.
I don't want to say, I know myself that good now, it's just that I feel that I got closer to the person I am. I can tell now what is me, where my borders are and were other people beginn.
If you're not getting what I'm writing about... you're probably too young.
No, just kidding ;-)

Now that I'm working as a pro photographer for this little team, I finally have the time to spend my freetime on doing something else. How can I say... now that I know that I'll be spending my time on photographing/editing 30-40 hours a week, I feel reliefed.
I feel kinda free.
Back in my old life, where I had to spend 8 hours at a work I hated, I always thought "I could use this time for photography". So this pressure is now gone.
So, now I can look for other things that I like too. And I already discovered I like writing.
I used to write a lot when I was in my teenage years. I wrote kinda poems. I am not sure because I had not in my mind "now I'm writing a poem". The words just came out.

It was a month ago that I had this vision. Normally these visions are about a picture, but this time I knew photography would be the wrong media to let this feelings out. So when I got home, I sat down and wrote. I wrote and wrote. I wrote almost everyday.
Until now I wrote about 80 pages.

So, this time I'm not posting a picture. All you see is
Words.

*sigh*

Watch this...

Why I love autumn

(C) Melanie Eichenauer, 2009. Canon EOS 350D.

I love autumn because...

* of the mist, the fog.
* the mystic feeling.
* the rain, I love to sit by the window, to hear and watch the rain.
* some of my favourtie CDs sound way much better. For example the latest Tori Amos CD "Abnormally attracted to sin" fits perfect in this time, I own it since it came out in May, but it was these rainy, foggy days that I started to love every single song of it.
* I like going for a walk in the nature, soaking up the fresh air.
* I love the melancholic feeling, the perfect time for great books and poems.
* it inspires me like nothing else.

A perfect sunday

It's already a perfect sunday.

A good book, muffins, coffee, cosy bed, listening to the rain... love it! That's just how I can really relax. The three of us cuddling in bed (my boy, our kitty and me). Wonderful :)

So, I just finished the most beautiful book I have read since the "Saltön" books by Viveca Lärn. The german title is "Der Geschmack von Apfelkernen", in english it would be "The taste of apple pips" ... I guess. It's written by Katharina Hagena.
It's about a woman that goes back to her childhood village, because of her grandmas death. She got the old house where she used to spend the summers at. And going back to that house means also going back to her childhood when she lost her cousin Rosemarie.
This book is so heartwarming, intelligent, wonderful.
It's about friendship and love, about losing memory and remembering.

This weekend autumn arrived. You can see the trees slowly changing from green to yellow and red. When I get up early everything is covered in fog, sometimes the fog surrounds our house and sometimes our house looks down on the villages that are covered in glowing yellow fog.
It's so silent. Yeah, of course up here it's a lot more silent that anywhere else... but... the birds. They already left us about 2-3 weeks ago.
I miss them.
No singing in the morning.... they often stop in front of our windows when the cat is watching them. Teasing her and making a bit of a fool out of her ;)

And I was a bit silent celebrating my first positive photographer job done for the photographer I currently work at. Silent because not many people seem to really understand what this achived level means to me. Of course they are happy and glad but ... sometimes I have the feeling they take it for granted. But for me... doing all this is hard work, most people think I can do this easily but actually it's really not that easy. And it's risky.
I love photography so much, working for someone else and working as a pro can make my photography bigger and better or it can be the complete opposite. Loosing this love.
But I am sure I am in wonderful good hands at this photographer, I know that. But it's still hard work and I have to learn so much and ... yeah.... I sometimes wish people would see that more.
But I don't want to complain, I do feel blessed and I am proud of myself. Really really proud.

Hope you're all doing well, gonna visit your blogs now - have a great week!

I can feel autumn coming...

... it's been a month since my last post. Wow.
August has been a very busy month, I can tell.

So what happened....

I'm in a photography traineeship at a popular local photographer. I already met this creative woman a year ago but it was this year that she called me. I asked for a job at another photography studio and the photographer handed my writing over to her.
So after a lot of running from office to office and dealing with a lot of austrian bureaucracy, I started my traineeship on 14th of August.
This programm will last until 23rd of October - one day after my birthday! And what will come after that... we will see ;)
Because of that programm I can also visit a highly recommended photoshop course, which will start in October.

It would be too much to retell everything, but let's say: the world wide crisis changed nothing. There is no help for young people looking for a job. I was unemployed for over 6 month and got no help, no answers, this traineeship could have started months ago, but no one ever informed me and told me about this programms.
So, to all of you who are unemployed - ask, get them on their nerves, and don't give up. You may also have to run and talk a lot on the phone too, but if you really want something don't give up!

During dealing with all this bureaucracy I also had to finish a few projects I started. I still have a lot of editing left to do for the fashion project, but the waiting will be worth it, I can promise.
And we're still not finished with redesigning our home. The dinning area is still left.
Oh... and of course the bath. We will make it bigger. But that's another project... I'm not sure if we will make it this year.

Then I spent a weekend with my boy and two of this working colleagues in lower austria. Sponsered by a company. We took part of a little cruise on the river Donau. It was beautiful. The next day we did a lot of sightseeing. I will show a few pictures later...

Last weekend we were at a wedding. We visited the couple a week before it and got to know two wonderful americans, Sydney and Pamela. They were here just for the wedding.
Pamela and me have so much in common, that was crazy. It's been a magical evening. We sat outside the house, where the parents of the groom live. Syd was playing a special flute, everything was quite, just one candle and the moon - gorgeous!
At the wedding Syd and Pamela had a present for us, a CD Syd did on his own, with his own artwork on it. Oh what beautiful relaxing and inspiring music. He also allowed me to use it on my website. And sure I will :)
On Sunday we visited them to say goodbye, this time we also had a little present for them. Austrian sweets and a picture of the wood where we live. They also invited us to visit them in Arizona. We felt so blessed for meeting such wonderful people.

And before all that it was my Daddies birthday, so we spent the weekend with him. So the weekend coming up now, will be the first weekend for a while that my boy and me have no plans we just want to stay at home, be lazy and cuddle up ;)

And here is a picture I have just taken a few minutes ago. I can already feel autumn comming....

in front of the house..., 3.9.2009, Canon 350D

Still there...

I am still there.
But really busy.

BIG news are on the way!
I'm gonna post on this as soon as everything is finished and ready to be told.

:)